Friday Introduction July 03, 2015
Hi! My name is Jena McGinnis. I am a wife to a mechanic and a mommy to Tatum (4), River and Arizona (18 months). Before October, I had NO idea what screen printing was, how to manage a website or social media, let alone, run a small print shop. When the Lord put it on my heart to pursue this, I asked no questions, except that He open the doors He wanted open and close the ones He wanted shut.
Since then my prayers have shifted a little. I still ask His will be done each and every day. As this is not my ministry at all and never want to get caught up in it and lose sight of what it is about, which is HIM.
In fact, I have been struggling a lot lately. A little something about me - I am a quitter. Things get hard, I quit. Because that is the easy thing to do. I have tried to quit this print shop ministry numerous times, but as I shared, it’s not mine so I can’t. The spiritual warfare that comes with serving the Lord can be rough. After all, we are only humans. Tiredness, insecurities, emotions, they all come in to play and all it takes is one glance away from Jesus and we will sink. A daily struggle for this mom.
The other day I begged the Lord to take this ministry away from me, “Lord, I am not qualified” I was pretty broken at the time and very tired. Fear had wrapped its ugly self around me and I felt paralyzed. Clear as day, He spoke to me, He said, “come sit with me and be still”. I grabbed my Bible and opened it up to Psalm 23. A Psalm we all know so well. But something that had never applied to me, something I had never truly understood until I was in that moment.
The Lord is my sheperd; I shall not want - We all want for things, it's human nature. And sometimes we can think or feel that if we just had that one thing, we would be happy. If I could just get more followers on instagram, I would know that I am making a difference... Oh yeah! That was me! I was totally thinking that what God was doing in the world around me was limited to Instagram. Umm, say what?! How small minded is that? In all reality, we really CAN'T know the difference we are making in this world, the lives we are touching, until we stand before our God in Heaven and He reveals it to us. And honestly, I do not want to know. I would totally turn into David and start counting my men after winning battles and think I AM SO AWESOME! Because, I am human. But I am not awesome and nothing that is taking place in my life is because of myself, with the exception of having an obedient heart that is in constant prayer to keep my eyes off myself and on God. Which, folks, is hard.
He maketh me lie down in green pastures: He leadeth me beside still waters - So here I am just like - whoa! whoa! whoa! God, I am not lying down in green pastures right now, I’m on a life boat in the middle of a crazy storm. HELP!! I trust and believe that if this is your thing, you will lead it wherever you want it.
He restarted my soul: He leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for His name’s sake - WOW! It just hit me like a freight train. “Nope Jena, there is nothing you can do. I’d much rather have your sitting with me then social media.” Something I have asked Him over and over and over again, is why? Why Lord did you chose me? I’ll never know until I stand before Him. But to have Him spell it out to me FOR HIS NAME’S SAKE. WOW! When the angry e-mails come. When the fiery arrows burn. When I just want to quit. It is NOT about me. It’s about Isaiah 55:11 - it’s about the promise that His word will NOT return void. It’s the fact that if He shut the doors of TTandTWINS tomorrow, He would open up another way for this recovered drug addict to share His amazing grace. But I cannot cannot cannot take me eyes off of HIM. And more importantly, when the human side of me does come out, I need to forgive myself, as He has forgiven me.
Yea thou I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff comfort me. - My valley is my own insecurities. My fear of failing. But how can I fear to fail at something that was never mine in the first place? It has taken a long time for me to fully digest that little fact right there. He comforts me - His promise that He is in control.
Thou preparest a table before me, in the presence of my enemies; thou annoints my head with oil; my cup runneth over. Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever. - In the house of the Lord FOREVER. Isn’t that what it is all about?! AMEN!!
So TTandTWINS is a print shop ministry that makes perfectly imperfect t-shirts, mugs, and pillows. The only thing perfect about the prints are the message, the reason, Jesus. Everything for HIS NAME’S SAKE because HIS WORD DOES NOT RETURN VOID and Heaven and Hell are real.